project mayhem

well, i finally came out of the closet today (not that closet - i'm still straight). it's something i've struggled with over the past year or so and it finally came rumbling through my mind into some sense. i needed to tell someone, to be authentic about my life. luckily, i've got a great friend that i was able to relate it to, who i knew would understand me.

i feel somewhat lost and disoriented right now. i want someone to hold me and tell me that everything is going to be alright, but it's that want that drives those who can help me away. i don't know how to reconcile everything still. i feel like a huge chunk has been turned upside down in my life. at the same time i feel like a burden has been partially lifted. i guess this will just take some time to sort out.